At First is was all smiles and Hi's

Shy looks away

Trying not to get caught looking anyway

Confusion, fear of rejection

I’ve never felt like this before, though

So how do I know how I feel?

How do I even know I’ve never felt like this before..

If I’ve never felt like this before...

But with the rumors running wild with imagination

How do I know?

How do I know anything?

Green?

- Go!

Yellow?

- Woah!

Red - Noo!

All signs missed

...Again with the fear of rejection brings hurt feelings

& now all 'fake' Hi's and smiles

Have ceased

Replaced by nods of acknowledgement to just a glance in the corner of your eye

But guess what...

I can handle it I can fake a smile when needed to, too

I can resist to looking from the corner of my eye

If to look at all

I can forge my feelings,

my reactions,

even my own self,

But my walls will forever stay wrapped around my heart

Just as before Its still in tact, My heart that is,

My walls, on the other hand, are currently under construction

But the terrifying thing is...

I don’t think I can survive another you.