FIN: A means to an end
Where do I begin?
The end?
Well I guess I could start from the actual beginning.
Which one?
There are so many.
Too many chances
Let's call them lasts firsts
There's a last first for everything.
First snow
First kiss
First love
First heartbreak
First drama
First happiness
First sadness
First friend.
There are no seconds.
Notice that?
You tried
They say I’m dead.
first death.
I’m still here though
That’s what you like pretending
I think I am at least.
Why are they crying?
Aren’t they happy?
Isn’t this what you wanted?
Why cry?
It was just
An escape
A quick fix
And believe me, I’ve tried
So many times
But I can't seem to bring myself back to life
shit
Did I miss something?
Did I do something wrong?
Why am I not there?
Why isn't this working?
I should be there
Why does the thing you worked so hard to do.
What did I do?
Seem so inane?
I want to go back
Hands shaking
I want to go back
Eyes watering
I want to go back
Tears pouring
I want to go back
Finger on the..
I
Trigger-
I can’t
Blade-
I can’t go back
Rope-
Why did you let me go?
You should be proud.
Take me back
You made it
They tried
Didn't you?
But I’m still here
But you know that's not how they'll see it.
Right?
You were
Don’t forget me
"Weak"
please
"Troubled"
don’t
"Toxic"
forget
"Insane"
me
You were
I can’t come back
"Sweet"
why did I do this?
"Kind"
I seemed so happy
"Helpful"
So free
Unnamed
Again
Just another statistic
I ask you
Just another day.
Will you
Nobody else sees it that way.
please
If they could bring you back they would
remember me?
Wouldn't they?
I’m gone