I am fat.
Some may say “same” or “retweet”
I am looking at you Ms. size four or five. SHUT UP.
Some of you are looking around the room
Some of you may feel uncomfortable
“I can’t believe she just said that!”
Here is why.
You have to understand that I’m not upset
I don’t have "low self- esteem"
That’s what you should assume right?
An extra large body should come with extra small ideas of myself
But, You may not see me in a Bikini
God I hope you don’t see me in a Bikini
But I won’t be throwing up
And I won’t be throwing myself away.
I want you to know I’m ok.
I don’t want to hear from a counselor
I don’t need a pamphlet telling me to change
If I want to go on a safe diet I will
But I’m 15
I want to live life
Not die on a diet
It’s not a danger,
My clothes are just a little bigger
So why? Why do people think I don’t like myself?
I may not be able to fit into the skinny beauty standard
But I have Standards for myself
Yes, society has a standard
Just because Barbie now has curves
Doesn’t mean society is going to swerve
The pretty had their own dolls since 1959, not 2019
I am not salty
I know that I am not made to be pretty
Some of you are probably thinking why did she do this?
Why couldn’t she just write about racism,sexism or some other ism?
But you see I am supposed to write about something Controversial
And if I make you squirm, I am succeeding.
And everybody else is writing about the world around them
And I am writing about what impacts me
I’m pretty sure My body impacts me
I am the silent majority
living life outside of a sorority
filled with girls in 2- piece bikinis
without worrying about stretch marks or their stomach sticking out
But I, don’t need to change,
But I need to understand
And so do you
That some people are destined to be pretty
To spend life with someone
their two eyes glued to two other things and one size five waist
She swoons over moon about that loon
and croons to the goons that are Ga-Ga over love goals
And whine how she is so fat and she needs to lose weight
And that she is the one who is disgusting
We take offence to that because
some people (like me)
Are destined to fall asleep
Thinking about someone She really likes
Wondering how she can impress them without wearing something nice
because she can’t.
we are asking to ourselves,
“Can they appreciate a personality?”
Because they can’t think I’m pretty.
Because her size is a twelve, not a five.
They may say “I don’t care about looks”
But I’m not talking about my face,
I am talking about my waist
So you see I want people to know that we,
Understand why you look at us that way
Because we are different from the pretty people.
And we know we will never be like them.
As I leave today I hope I finally clear the elephant in the room
Because the Elephant in the Room is me.