What can you say

 

What can you do

 

You beat me down

 

Until I'm through

 

Not till now 

 

Have I felt this urge

 

I thought it left

 

But apparently not

 

To draw the blade

 

Over and Over

 

But I can't

 

I won't

 

I have to stay strong

 

I can't stop crying

 

And my heart is bleeding

 

I even wanted to die

 

You may go on

 

Thinking it's over

 

But it shall stay permanent

 

In My Mind

 

I thought I won the war

 

But that was just a battle

 

So now I'm on the front line

 

Once again

 

I want to give up

 

Just let it be over

 

But I continue on

 

In hopes that you'll suffer

 

But you won't

 

And I know

 

That maybe I'm truly alone

 

Because how do you tell someone

 

How do you let them in

 

They have their own pain

 

I don't want to add to it

 

I wasn't wanted

 

At least not at first

 

But it just seems to be growing slowly worse

 

And I wonder

 

Where will be the breaking

 

The total loss

 

The let go

 

How much more can I hold

 

Before I lose control

 

I need someone to reach out

 

A helping hand

 

But not out of pity or sadness

 

Just know what I'm going through

 

Don't force me to talk about it

 

I don't need a psychiatrist

 

I just need a hand to hold

 

And someone to say

 

Everything's gonna be alright