A Different Kind of Urge
Lately
I have had the urge
to draw -
to write -
make beauty in words
or colours -
but not in lines.
This desire, I think, emerged
out of surreality
and inspiration for poetry
arisen from torture.
Those thoughts were not mine,
though these words are.
I know I must restrain
the expression of what
I feel - I think -
I see - I know.
Never again will I display
those long sets of parallel lines,
drawn with silver
in the dark,
shown in red
to no one.
The urge to return to
the relief I used to know...
But instead I have to draw -
to write - to say
and show those thoughts
to nobody.
Is it really so bad to wish
for a different reality -
when the power for change
is trapped in blank paper?
I will submit to the urge
to write -
to draw -
make beauty in words
or colours -
but never in lines.