Desiring
Remember yesterday, when I told you
When I told you I laid
Laid on the concrete floor
In fetus position reaching for my heart
My heart pounding as honks invaded my ears
My ears were concentrated with the voices in my head
My head ponding with frustration for another breath
Its alright, they left me alone
They leave me alone
Their screams do not penetrate me.
I laid.
I’ve felt the cold concrete floor on my face before.
Before it felt reassuring
Reassuring because they would go in reverse but I can’t
I can’t because I choose to move forward.
Maybe we can lay on the cold pavement floor
Let our hearts beat rapidly
You will understand how therapeutic it can be.