Numb.

Paralyzed.

My state of being your unaware of.

Don't know where to turn.

Knife.

Slit my wrist 

It makes it all better.

Pop a few advils. 

Deep dark sleep. 

Take a bath hoping to drown.

Suicide attempt. 

Did work out. 

I'm still here. 

Doing for her. 

She had cancer she's gone now.

I can tell people to pick themselves up

but I can't quite do that myself.

Idiotic. 

Foolish...

Life took me by the neck and

threw me against every wall. 

Now I'm damaged