![](/sites/default/files/styles/large/public/IMG_20210228_162615%20-%20Edited.jpg?itok=0QP6DWdX)
Dad
You used to bicker, holler, and fight
Yeah, I still heard, even though I was in bed at night
How could one sleep when you were yelling at the top of your lungs?
Been that way since I was young
Do you know how hard it's been?
You were the reason I got trapped in my own fight, when I though I couldn't win
When I started to listen to you, to listen to all of the shit you said
At that time, I thought I was better off dead
But you never fucking noticed, otherwise, I'd be surprised
By now I've stopped listening to those lies
I'm better now, after a hard few years
All of them filled with tears...
Y' know, I was willing to forgive you? To let it all go
But then, you made that decision without letting me or mom know
You decided to move out, to break up with my mother
But before you got home to pack, did you even bother to tell her?
No, you jackass, you didn't even let us know you were debating
I wonder who it is next that you'll be dating
You lost your chance, because this I won't forgive or forget
So you go on, leave, take your cigarettes
And while you were at it, did you have to take Willow?
The sweet dog, who just lost her best buddy a month ago?
I tried to tell you, leave her here, let her be happy
But the response you gave, was what hurt me badly
You looked me in my eyes full of tears
And you undid every good thing you've done over the years
Mom watched, she was right, got your response word-for-word
Why couldn't another set of words be heard?
You told me, it was your decision, my mom and I never mattered
Or did we, dad? Did I miss something in the repetitive pattern?
You said you didn't try to act like the asshole, but honestly?
You could've fooled me
So go. I don't care anymore.
I'm tired of crying on the floor
I'm sick of it all, I don't want to see you again
If it so happens, you call, well then,
You know your answer, a "No" in bold, red ink
Because for now, I'm severing the link
Good luck dad, I hope you find someone to make you happy
Maybe someone might thaw that frozen heart, if it exists, but one day
I hope you realize, all of the crap you have done to me
Maybe one day, I might get a sorry
Whether I forgive you or not... well dad, I don't know
You'd have to get off your high horse of assholedom
Come down into the land of empathy
And you'd have to truly talk to me
Not a text, not a call, not a thirty-second conversation
Maybe then, our words would not need translation
If that were to happen, I would consider forgiveness
But until then, all I have for you is pure, unadultured hatred
(Image and poem credits to myself)