Collateral Damage
Young girl, 13
You just know you’re playing your cards right
Your parents don’t know
That you snuck out last night
Swore you were just protecting your friend
But you kind of liked the thrill
Kind of craved the attention
And you don’t see that
No matter how genuinely spoken
Those words and those hands
Should not pass from a grown man to a child
And the summer stretches endlessly
Sunburns to match the hurt
Of being alone, being scolded
You didn’t know, you didn’t know
And you’re so alone that
You lash out, reach-out
Through pictures on a screen
Baby, those pictures have no business being seen
Have you not had enough of cops in your house?
And you need me, need someone
And you know my heart breaks with yours
And I’m caught in your collateral damage
Prepared to break your fall
Young girl, 14
You know you’ve got to toe this line
The girls can’t know
How you snuck out last night
But girls are mean, and they drag you
Through the dirt, calling you out
And your mother hears from a principal’s office
Of your misdeeds and mistreatment
You beg her to leave,
You want another chance
But chances cost, and so if you get one
You’ll have to try to not to blow it
And another summer finds you
You hide in pool floats and sun-kissed skin
And find something new to hold onto
But is it really new if it’s just a replacement model
Of the last boy, who calls you names,
And hoards your body among the others in his collection?
So you try to break it off, to break yourself
Baby, you have to want it for yourself
Have you not had enough of name-calling yet?
And you need me, need someone
But you’re so angry to be back here
That I become your collateral damage
A dangerous comparison that may just rip us apart
Young girl, 15
And at this point, you know
What you’re doing and you know where it leads
So what was going through your head?
When you were with a friend’s brother in her basement
When you snuck another friend out at night
When you Skype him after we’re all in bed
And he calls you names and talks of other girls
While you’re parading yourself around
Not covering your body, leaving naked your heart
You say you’re trying to save them-Save who?
Baby, the only one I see who needs saving is you
Have you not had enough of this yet?
And you can’t even get to summer this time
As you blow your disguise and our mother
Finds your pictures, finds the records
Of the slurs, and the names and the way
That you play so hard into it
She finds your lies, and it wounds your pride
Because you say you wanted attention
But now that you’re getting it all you want
Is to go back to him because
Being called a bitch is easier for you to hear
Than being called loved
And you need someone, need me
To take all of this out on
So you call me names, threaten me,
Comb over my body for anything that you
Can make seem worse than anything you’ve done
And you need someone, need me
To comfort you
And hold you and be your friend
But I can’t be that for you
Because you’ve buried me so far
Under in your collateral damage that
You can’t hear me screaming for you anymore