I still dont understand why exactly you did it. I still hear something different from both of you each time. I still want to pretend that none of this happened. I still want to pretend like none of it was real. I still want to say things are good. I still want to say things are fine   but theyre not. I still feel the tension whenever you fight. I still feel like nothing you could say could make things right. I still want that feeling of anger and disappointment away and out of my life. I still want you to be happy. I still want both of you to be happy. But you dont want to forget; not in this life.