after all these years

i finally spoke out about a personal moment in my life

my girl was being very attentive

listening like a little kid whose mom was telling a story

my girl stared at me anticipating the next words that come out of my mouth

i was sharing about my dysfunctional family

well, my immediate ones

i was conveying about the tragic relationship between me and my mother that was left for dead

a relationship that is beyond one's repair

something that no one evers wants to have

it's more amazing when other family members don't speak to me

i have a good idea why

you know what, at this point in my life

it doesn't matter

my girl was sadden

she talks about how her mom can be over bearing

i can understand that

i reminded her that she has only one mother

regardless of how her mom can be, she is your heart and soul

my inner self have been covered of layers full of resentment and anger

i dealt with it

my issues doesn't deal with me

why?

i broke that cycle

you see, i don't want to become like my folks

nor other family members who don't know how to speak for oneself

in their eyes, i'm guilty by association

i don't live my life with guilt

in my eyes, i live my life through my eyes

no one else

all my girl did was held my head

and kiss me so ever gently

saying sorry and all is going to be okay

i know that

i'm thankful that someone else sees it