Blighted Ovum
Have you ever lost something
You loved so much?
It’s not so much that you couldn’t find it
But it was just gone.
The world seems to fall apart.
You forget how to breathe.
Nothing is important anymore.
Life just feels wrong.
Each morning gets a little harder
To just get out of bed.
The pain feels never ending.
You thought you were strong.
First comes the denial
And you’re sure that you are wrong
It can’t be true
But it is.
Then comes the anger.
The world is so unfair.
Why can others have what I long for?
I want it more.
Bargaining is short lasted
Because there’s no trade worth it.
The lost something is your heart
And nothing could replace it.
Finally, you think you’ve accepted it.
It’s lost and that’s all there is to it.
But as the minutes
Turn into hours
And the hours
Into days
This funk you’re in reveals itself.
Depression.
It’s not acceptance at all.
Your stomach still turns
And your eyes still feel wet
Every time you think or see or hear about it.
This is the dark hole
That seems impossible to leave.
This is the grief that eats at you for years.
This is what lost things become.
I tried to give the moon and stars.
I tried to give the sun
To get the thing I needed most.
Now it is gone
And my world has no light.