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1.
If by being more concise,
you could shorten your life,
how often would you talk?
2.
The things that make me sad are as follows:
the blare of an alarm clock;
waking up to a dark room;
walking under a dark sky
to sit in a dark bus;
cold and unfeeling winters
that don't leave until I am also cold and unfeeling;
seeing people tell children to shut up;
wondering if the kids will listen;
continuing to follow orders from years ago;
when I feel like I am wasting something;
when I consider ending;
when I remember
that I have been invested in
and debts can't be paid by the dead.
3.
The things that make me happy are as follows:
being totally submerged underwater
in the deep end of the pool on a hot summer day,
limbs suspended,
gravity softer,
feeling weightless as refracted sunlight;
laughing as much as my lungs allow;
smiling for so long
that my face feels tight and sore
and it feels safe and right
to be so close to people;
the intimacy between my brother and me,
a bond formed at the ages of zero and three;
singing badly by day,
singing badly by night,
creating vocal symmetry;
staring up at a dark sky,
counting the stars overhead;
eyes closed in a dark room,
the warmth of my bed.
4.
When I was younger,
I talked too much
and when I was older,
I talked too little
but nowadays
I talk.