Behind the Mask (unedited)
Who is this girl
Behind the blank face with the glasses
You'd have to catch me in a good day
when I'm a normal girl who has dreams and friends to work with
a girl who manages to likes most of who she is, no problem
bad days I'm nothing more than a burden
that useless annoying piece of trash you can never get rid of
but who wants to hear all that whining
(I certainly don't wanna talk about it)
let's get to it!
I've never been the talkiest of girls
and I guess I've always felt weird with other people
good weird, but weird
like a disconnect, a barrier
which stops us from ever fully connecting
I feel most at home, well, when I'm at church
Sending my prayers to God
my Lord, Jesus Christ
yeah, go ahead, call me a religious freak
Because that's all Catholics amount to these days, right?
Catholics, Protestants, people of any religious faith
Labeled 'freaks and
judgmental snobs'
you don't know me
what I don't and do approve of
There's more to me than my religious faith
Like how I feel most comfortable when I'm on my laptop
writing out the realities in my head
stories of the characters who chose me
to tell their tales
Course, I'm no good at finishing them
but one of these days-!
One of these days...
Yeah...Yeah!
One of these days I'll belt out a story
with a beginning, middle, and end
filled with dialogue, plot, and compelling characters
a story people will be begging a sequel for
You can count on it!
There are days when everything,
from my parents to my friends,
as much as I love them,
just makes me wanna
scream
grab a pillow
pound it to the ground
punch it into submission
or maybe
grab some paper
rip it apart into teeny tiny shreds
and dump the remains into the trash
Other days it's the biggest high in the world
being with the people I love
out in the real world
the sun giving me just, the biggest embrace
You know, what I'd really love
is to have more days like that
Yeah
That'd be cool.