“Because I love you”

 

I love you so much,

 

every breath you breath 

 

every little touch.

 

 

You’ve infected me 

 

with something i fail to see.

 

There’s this unwilling doubt

 

and uncertainty. 

 

 

I cant see that I was once so strong without you, 

 

Flying high as a bird. 

 

I have wish i could’ve learned to doubt you 

 

and everything I've heard.

 

 

“Because i love you” isn’t enough to keep me trapped anymore.

 

Knowing what it felt like to fly

 

I am now ready to soar.

 

 

Soar far away from the nest you’ve made me

 

made of needles and thorns.

 

Something I once found so cozy

 

and acquired deep adorns. 

 

 

Im done with the glass you’ve broken 

 

and every word you’ve spoken. 

 

 

Every “I'm sorry” uttered from your lips

 

and every “its okay” uttered from mine,

 

made me realize that my partnerships

 

were anything but fine. 

 

 

Now i know that because i love you 

 

I can love myself. 

 

Because i loved you 

 

I can love me more than anyone else

 

 

And you would be okay,

 

at least I think you would…

 

because I’m tired of the games you’ve made me play

 

this back and forth is no longer any good.

 

 

And I’m sorry that I have to go 

 

but maybe I’m not.

 

Because maybe this separation will show

 

that I have more strength than I thought.

 

 

Its because I love you 

 

enough to know when to leave.

 

It’s time to close the door 

 

and throw away the keys.

 

 

Its time to love someone else for a change.

 

Myself. 

 

Because I now realize that there is nothing more strange

 

than giving up self respect for somebody else. 

 

 

But as this plays out in my head

 

you are shaking me by the shoulders and holding me tight

 

I feel myself bruising to no end

 

but you say its “because i love you”… right?