I’m scared I am not growing up to be the person

I think I am growing up to be,

Or even want to grow up to be.

 

I’m scared of feeling like I’m living solely to

Please others,

And not feeling like I’m living to

Please myself.

 

I’m scared of how much I care about

The possibility of failure

I’m scared that

Everything I know could just as easily be

Real as it is fake.

 

This is not a past.

This is not a future.

This is a right now.

I’m scared right now.

 

If I wasn’t scared,

I would be scared.

Fear is the only thing that holds us back.

And fear is the only thing that moves us forward.

 

So I think I’ll stay scared,

Forever.