I saw you in a mirror today
But it wasn’t your face I saw
It was mine.
I saw your hardened eyes
The way your mouth tipped into cruelty
The look on your face when you stripped me of pride
I saw the look of disappointment
The wrinkles in your forehead
Your eyebrows furrowed in disgust
I hadn’t imagined you there
You were always a part of me
I only wished you could see the good in me
I live my life in fear of what I could be,
Never what I want to see,
Always as it should be.
I was too afraid to raise my head.
I didn't want to look you in the eye
And see mine looking back at me.
Every day I told myself I would never be like you
I was afraid of the monster
But now I realize the monster was inside me
I just used you as an excuse to release it for the world to see.