Why do I cry?

Why do I mourn?

Why can't I see all that is good around me?

Everything is in gray

Nothing matters

I refuse to let anything change the mood I have decided I deserve

Those around try to make me smile, make me laugh

But nothing will infiltrate the walls I have built around myself

I choose to let the world know that I am upset

I am angry

I am sad

If I could only break through the barriers I would see

The colors

The excitement

The fun

Everything around me is amazing, but I feel nothing

Nothing at all

Will I ever break free?

I just hope one day I will look around and be able to see

The rainbows