AM I CRAZY
am I crazy?
so I've been fucking told!
I always thought I would save the world from pain.
trying to keep our children from being fucked over and over again.
I hear the screaming of the rabbits in my brain.
finding it hard to differentiate my screams from theirs,
I see me with that lead pipe as I bash daddies head to pulp, smashing his smug, all knowing smile
I don't refrain from hearing the voices in my head,
telling me kill, kill, kill him, smash him till he's dead.
yet his evil ghosts still won't leave my mind.
for gods sake daddy, i see you awake and in my dreams
my daddy loves me
You'd be crazy too if you had to listen to your father fucking anything that moves
Or try watching movies at the drive-in with your parents
kids in the back seat
Clothes your eyes kids
NO WALT FUCKING DISNEY for us
the documentary about sadism and masochism playing in our ears
it's only for adults
like my father really needs instruction
Try living with the crawling hand worse than the movie one. Sit on my lap cream puff, wheres the vasoline?
god, I hate the non smell of vasoline, his lotion of choice.
Oh mama mama, where for art thou mama?
mamas cooking, cleaning, going to church.
praying to god for my evil soul?
Using your self blinding manipulations!
your Black hole in your memory mama ?
you are the BLACK HOLE!
What? you cant see daddy in the cars middle seat?
smothering me because I bite hard?
smashing my lips with a hand full of
'This will hurt me more than you daughter'
Now i get to wear a permanant crack in my lip to forever remind me of our LOVING family camping trips and force fed alcohol
THATS RIGHT DADDY! I'LL BITE THAT MOTHER FUCKER RIGHT OFF
mama stops the car, so I can puke his cream of the crop
out the door
watch it, shaunda
those could be your future brothers or sisters.
FOR GODS SAKE HOW MANY MORE DOES HE NEED
move every six months so no one sees the monster for our father
i gladly pee and shit in a can in my closet because the bathroom is no longer safe,
I see you waiting in the dark living room daddy
I'D RATHER SHIT AND EAT IT before I use that bathroom again.
what? if i dont let you do me, You'll get my baby sister?
and when I hear her screams, I'll know it shoulda been me!
dont tell on daddy or hell go to prison
who'll take care of us then
we'll all be adopted out, never to see each other again
liar liar pants on fire
get me in the sack
beat it blue and black
as daddy smuggly smiles
and mama hides her eyes
I can't take it
every day, every minute
I'm so afraid.
so i'll just slit his throat while he sleeps
im just a little girl
im so alone
please help me god
God must be asleep
WAKE UP GOD PLEASSSSSE
gods too tired
And mama wants to know how I ever got this crazy?
Well fuck you mama and the dick you rode in on.
I cant take it anymore
my brain is cracking from all the people screaming in my head
Saying I'm better off dead
am i fucking crazy?
so ive been fucking told!
And I smile...........
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