She didn't deserve to hurt
She didn't deserve all the pain she felt from
Friends, Family, Teachers
She didn't deserve to be tormented and ostricized
Because of some scars on her arms
I tried to help, to encourage, to cheer her on
"I love you, I've loved you for so long"
"I would give you the world if I could"
"I would do anything to lessen your pain"
"If you love me, then hurt as I do
If you love me, then use my razor when you come over"
"I thought you loved me"
I wanted to help, but I didn't want to hurt
I wanted to help, but she wanted me to suffer beside her
I wanted to help, but I was blamed for every issue
"You are selfish, you always have been"
Maybe I was and that's why I was demoted to a backup plam
"I'm busy" "I'm going out with Melanie"
And then a week later
"God, Melanie is rude - I don't deserve this."
"I've missed you! We haven't spoken in a while"
"You've been distant, hanging out with Melanie."
"What? Why are you getting so upset? I thought you loved me"
I sat there, hooked on a line
Hoping she'd reel me in closer to her,
But I stayed out at sea
Distant, Alone, Growing more numb
"You've always been such a selfish bitch"
"You've only ever thought of yourself, while saying you loved me"
"How could you say we can't be friends anymore?"
I hadn't said that
She hadn't said she loved me in months
She left me
I was alone
She doesn't deserve to be hurt
She doesn't deserve to be strung along by her friends and boys
She doesn't deserve the emotional torment they were all putting her through
She doesn't deserve to be pressured and manipulated into doing things she didn't like
But after all this time,
The time it's taken to heal, and to learn how to love again, I know
I don't deserve that either