I ignored the laughter

I ignored the blood

I ignored the screams

I ignored the pain

But when I fell

I couldn't ignore them any longer

I couldn't help but cringe

I couldn't help but convulse

I couldn't block out any more noise

I fell from grace

After I saw the strings

That held me up

On a malicious stage

And while I tried to hide

While i tried to return to the way things were

I joined the screaming

I joined those who couldn't run

For even when I was performer

It was there All Along