Good enough.

Am I?

What is?

 

Applying for graduate schools.

Will I make it?

Have I done enough?

Will this be the one?

 

No.

 

Okay, try again.

 

More applications.

More time.

More money.

 

Can I even do this?

Do they think I’m worth it?

Will my perfect future come through?

 

No.

 

Okay, get up. Once more.

 

More rejections.

More self-doubt.

Lower self worth.

 

Will I ever have my dream?

Has this all been a waste?

Why am I everyone’s second choice?

 

Everything is out of my control.

 

The scariest words:

“out of control”

 

How do I manage?

How do I get through this?

 

I work.

I apply.

I pray.

I persevere.

 

More applications.

More money.

More time.

 

Finally,

an acceptance.

Followed by tears of relief.

 

All that hard work

All those hours

All the pain

 

Worth it.

 

I am worth it.

 

No more out of control.

I have been, and always will be,

good enough.