My heart races

Eyes blood red

Loneliness fills the spaces

Were happiness fled.

 

You never touched me but I hugged you

You never kissed me but I loved you

I put you in my life to stand apart

But all you did was tear my heart apart.

 

You left me in oblivion

My soul caught in the hand of phobias

Unable to speak, I couldn’t open up

I never thought I could fear love.

 

Love is necessary for us to thrive, but I let myself die

I couldn’t survive, taking eyes for eyes to feel better

Tried to do the same but it just made me even sadder

A cold soul watching cranes in the sky fly away.

 

I needed to stand up to heal me

I opened my doors little by little

Guys could look in and see

The vast universe inside me.

 

Most of all, I needed to love me.

I grabbed insecurity by the hand, hugging us like we wanted it to be.

Told myself I was beautiful and I could start to believe

I was already whole and already me.

 

I didn’t get rid of fear since that’s built in

I just learned that fear’s needs to be let in.

That the only thing that stops me is me

And that’s the last thing I’ll ever need.