Thankful
“Be thankful,” you say “That I’m still friends with you”
As if my very presence could unravel everything you’ve worked so hard to build
As if the very atoms my body was built of are in danger of breaking apart
Of taking back all the space they occupied when they were stars
As if I’m a time bomb
And you are counting down the seconds
“Be grateful,” you say “I’m trying to save you”
But your ideals do not erase my existence
Your piety was spun of lies from men who did not understand the world they tried to define
The words you tell me to live by were tainted by mortals who thought their word was God
Don’t tell me what I am is against your religion
When it was your God who made me this way
And when he strung together the pieces of my soul
I bet he hoped people like you wouldn’t teach me to hate the very parts of me he hand chose
So no
I will not be thankful for your mortal attempt to make me holy
I will no longer mistake gift with sin
You should be thankful
That I have been silent for so long
Because that is a luxury you will never have the comfort of again
I’m tired of hiding my love to heed your misguided beliefs
I long for the day when I bring home my girlfriend to my family
and even my grandparents love her
Someday I will bundle up my love
All tied up with a bow
And gift it to a wonderful girl
She will not think sin
And You
Someday you will not think me Lucifer
For I have never been the one to mistake my words for blessings
Someday You will not think me a serpent
For I have never tempted you to betray God
Someday you will see me truly
A descended from stars, not perfect but trying
human
And that is when
I will be thankful