i look down 

my toes are wiggling nurvously, as the blinking number between my feet

is not where i want it to be. 

i close my eyes.

tight.

tighter.

tight enough to turn that number into the one i want.

beep

oh no.

that evil noise.

i wait

there, with my eyes shut

i wait

i dont want to look.

slowly i move my chin down till i feel it against my naked chest

and i whip open my eyes.

but i am suprised.

the number 

is 2 pounds

under my goal weight.

the voices in my head are baffled...

can this be??

i just ate...

i...

how...

granted, ive worked for this but...

how?
 

suddenly, the voices turn from confused

to evil.

you can loose more 

easily

and you know it.

controll yourself. 

all you have to do is 

controll yourself.

youve done it before

you can do this

i can do this