Poems from Vespertinal
Today's supposed to be a happy day.
A great day. A wonderful day of joy.
So why? Why don't I feel excited?
Why don't I feel anything?...
Emotions bottled up never to be found
Walls built out of pain and sorrow
Fear cementing them together
To avoid breaking what likely needs...
I made some plans, they disappeared.
I lost some friends and shed some tears.
Around me masks, no people there.
Weddings livestreamed, yet...
"I'm fine," I say when asked how I'm doing,
"I'm good," I tell you when something's wrong,
on the outside I may appear happy and joyful,...
So many preparations, regulations, expectations,
so many people expecting me to people-please their purposes.
Since when am I your puppet...