You were suppose to be there for me
You were suppose to be the first person I see at my happiest moments in life
You were suppose to be the one who wiped away my tears on my darkest days
But I've spent every second alone and with the wrong people
Now when I'm scared I have nobody but myself
I pretend like everything around is just in spiral
but it's just me not knowing the way to go
I'm sorry I didn't feed your expectations
but you weren't even there to push me to reach my goals
I understand now
When going through life I will never rely on a single person 
I've been independent my whole life so why not now?
Like they say you'll be good it's always gonna be good
But sometimes I wish I can persue in happiness 
I'm hurt. 
and right now I just wan't to breathe in and exhale natures healer
Only way I feel sane is being high on everyones expectations.