I wanted to keep you so bad ,
but I guess you didn't want it
I did everything in my power to keep you
but with every attempt you made me look stupid
with every attempt you made me feel unworthy
you made it clear to me that you didn't want me ,,
but my love for you always blinded me
I always thought that if I show you how much I love you
you would love me a little bit
but I was mistaken
I could never have you , no ,I never had you
it was all pretence ,
it was a lie all along
you never loved me ,you always thought of her
and I thought I could change that
and maybe one day you'd look at me the way you looked at her
that one day I'll have a place in your heart if I can't take her place
I thought that one day you'd love me
and I tried ,
I tried to make you love me
I did all I could but still ,it was all trash to you

you still loved her right ?
you never forgot her ,

even when you told me about her
you used me to forget her , right ?
or did you use me to make her jealous?
even when you knew that all you craved was her touch ,
how she felt like, how she tasted
and that's why when she came back you couldn't resist
but what about me ? did I ever exist in your world ?
You never loved me , did you?
I never meant anything to you ,did I ?
Why didn't you fight for our love 🥺