I sat down next to you in class

And you said hello.

I gave you my number

And you said you'd text me soon.

I became your friend

And you said that was enough.

I laughed at jokes that weren't funny

And you said I was perfect.

I listened to your anxieties

And you said I was your savior.

I said that was too much pressure

And you said I could handle it.

I said no when you asked me out

And you said this was already more than a friendship.

I said no

And you painted my thoughts with the word slut.

I said no

And you said that if I didn't, you would tell him everything.

I said I was scared

And you said I should be.

I said I didn't want him to see me the way you did

And you said he would never look at me anyways.

I said I would go out with you, as long as you left him alone

You said I better, or else you would kill yourself.

I put on my dress and my heels

And you put on your best attempt at a smile.

I didn't meet your eyes

And your hands gripped my hips too tightly.

I followed you onto the dance floor

And you spun me around so I could see him, dancing with her.

I said that it didn't matter to me

And you said that he could never love me, only you could.

I left the dance

And you knew I felt empty.

I was shattered

And you were happy to do it.

I said nothing was wrong

And he didn't believe me.

I told him about you

And he just nodded. 

I told him what you called me

And he said it wasn't true.

I told him what you asked me

And he said asked why I did it.

I told him I didn't want you to hurt yourself

And he knew there was another reason.

I never told him how you threatened to tell him I loved him

And how you were going to tell his girlfriend.

I just said you used the thing that makes me the most vulnerable against me

And he never asked me to share.

I said you always made me share

And he said it wasn't supposed to be like that.

I said I felt a little less broken

And he said I never was.