I honestly don’t know what I’m doing wrong
I thought I had gotten over you but I guess not
My heart aches when I hear your name
My chest is heavy
Like its being crushed with despair
My eyes are filled with tears I cannot shed
My entire body goes numb and I cannot move
My mind is filled with memories of your smile
My ears resound with the sound of your laughter
I dare not close my eyes or I begin to hallucinate
Your warmth surrounds me and I am intoxicated by your smell
I choke on my own twisted imagination
My throat is tight with the words I once spoke to you
Every “I love you” rests on my tongue
Every promise I made catches in my throat
The deepest of my emotions fills my lungs like smoke
I no longer breathe air
I no longer speak
I no longer see or hear or smell
I no longer sleep
I close my eyes and I am transported through time
The last kiss
It replays over and over
How you leaned down and pressed your soft lips against mine
You took away the air from my lungs and replaced it with you
You took away the voices in my head and replaced it with your smile
You never looked back as you walked away
You left me standing there in shock
You used your touch to swell my heart and when it burst
You crushed it under your feet
I miss you and everything that is you
Love songs fill me with longing for you
Every verse reminds me of you
When I write I end up writing about you
You have invaded my entire being
And you don’t even know
You will never know and a small part of me doubts that you even care
I’m afraid that you care
Because if you care then there might be a small part of you that is me
I’m afraid that small part will draw me back to you
I’m afraid you will want me back like how I need you
I’m afraid I’ll take you back no hesitation
I’m not afraid of falling for you all over again
And that’s what scares me the most