My eyes are tricking me

Or maybe it's my mind

I wish I could feel this way

A million more times

Flushed 

and

Rushed

and

Unaware

Free from every emotion that has brought me here

I want to play god for an hour

Maybe two

Just enough to let go of the resentment

Towards today, tomorrow too

My thoughts are numb

I can feel my heart

It doesn't hurt

Do I have no thoughts

line after line my reality

Gone

Starting to believe my brain may be 

Lost

Left behind to every line to which I lowered my nose

Exactly where I needed it to find some hope

Intuition buried

A heart racing fast

Turn my face on the world

for a night that wont last