1. There are instances in every person's life
2. when they feel alone...distorted
3. where they feel betrayed and disconnected from society
4. There has been a time where I have felt this way
5. Secluded...
6. ...Alienated from the world
7. It was about two years ago
8. When the doctors forcefully pushed my father into the Intensive care unit
9. I stay stayed, slept, and ate at the hospital...
10. ...waiting for something horrible to drip from the doctor's mouth
11. Yes, I cried...my father had a ten percent chance to escape death
12. Enormous amounts of ideas were running through my head
13. ...through my mind
14. These ideas weren't necessarily good
15. but they also were not driven from bad intentions
16. I knew without my dad, I would have to provide
17. I knew that I would have to provide for my siblings...for my house...for my life
18. I knew I would have to drop school
19. Drop school... and get a job
20. I had decided that my life...my life no longer belonged to myself
21. Education was no longer my goal
22. I remember sitting alone
23. in a corner...and I heard everyone
24. everyone...except for myself
25. My innocence and my chastity was leaving me
26. Thoughts like these were decomposing my mind
27. My mind-and-my soul
28. Once I had thought about God
29. Maybe I did something wrong?
30. Maybe this was my fault?
31. Was it because I laughed at that joke?
32. Was it because I said that demented word?
33. Was it because I spoke my mind?
34. Whatever it was....it was scratching through my skin
35. Scratching through my flesh....and it would eventually reach my heart
36. I felt my father's foot...it felt dead
37. As I felt it I looked up...and his eyes slowly opened
38. And I was no longer alone