Honestly I just feel like the world doesn’t understand

The fight to find myself

To discover who I am

The negative energy flowing

The positive vibes

I try to stay positive

But lately this negative energy

The fight goes on and on

Suffering silently

Disappearing sullenly

I’m lost in a dreamy world

Wandering in the head of who I once was

I used to think I was human

But I struggle to understand my nature

Question after question

Event after event

Bullet after bullet

My blood spills

I’m drowning out

Getting blow after blow

I look for some peace

I thought I discovered it

I feel so alive

They call me mentally retarded

Crazy

Worthless

I try to understand if there is any decency in this world

I try to seek peace

I try to seek myself

I look for my eyes

Touch my ears

And smell the ocean salt

Pouring out of my veins

They continue to call me crazy

And point fingers

Finger after finger

I know this world will be the death of me

I know that I can’t go on any longer

I know that I gotta go

I know that I am used and mutilated

I look into her eyes

Looking for clarity

But only receive coldness, attack after attack

Attachment after attachment

I’m looking

Searching

Finding

Believing

Hatred and war tainting a peace mind that once existed

I feel genuinely happy

And I don’t give one fuck about what you think about me

It is so funny how I even thought I could pull you in

But the winter comes and goes

Ironic how people can be so negative

And they ask for love

They ask for forgiveness

But they can’t even forgive themselves

I feel invisible

Losing my touch in the world

I look into my eyes

Touching my hand

Feeling my vibe

I just wanna be free

It’s a mindset

A victory in a field full of war

I look

And I see

I look

And I find

I look

And I discover

I look

And I am myself again

Whole heartedly

It doesn’t slow me down anymore

I feel like a free Holden

Cruising down the lanes of life

Achieving what they never thought possible

A testament to my character

A testament to life itself

So I take the time to reminisce

And it all breaks down

Top to bottom

A breath of fresh air

He breathes in and out

Picks his shot

and finds it

Love

Life

And simplicity

Paradise

At last

Paradise

At last