A moment is what it was but like an eternity it felt
What a crazy hand of cards I have been dealt
He said I was the only one but somewhere inside I knew I wasn't
The red flags numbered more than a dozen
Why I was so blind is still unknown to me
I guess it was only the good I wanted to see
I ignored the signs that something was wrong
Like a puppy I was strung along
I did the things he asked cause I thought I was special
But his focus was only on everything sexual
In his eyes I was worth nothing; a piece for his pleasure
Nothing but my body did he seek as his treasure
I have never felt this depressed and alone
But the fault regardless of what others say is my own
I hate to think that and I wish it wasn't true
But that is how it looks to me and this isn't something new
My last boyfriend was the same way
And every time I fall in love there's a price to pay
I didn't mean to do this and I regret it
For now I have to trust that this piece will in my life puzzle fit
Right now things seem dreary and all I can see is pain
But no matter how great the hurt I know I will pick myself up again
I love too easily and fall for someone without question
Finding a guy to be mine has become an obsession
It has to stop now not later cause there may not be another chance
For me to be the best I can be I must take a stance
That focuses my life on God and His plan for me
I don't want another guy who's so worldly