When I left I felt relief 

I constantly questioned myself during my relationship asking God "why me"

I became a seed

That man had sewn

That I had to reap 

All those restless nights

Where the sun never shine 

Because I was afraid to leave 

Seconds became minutes

Minutes became hours

Hours became days

Days became months

That last month became a year

Why did I have to weep

With my thoughts racing 

I became afraid to sleep

Hurtful thoughts builds cages for wild animals

I was afraid to think 

I can't move "GeT Out"

Like Chris I became afraid to Sink 

Loved this man with all my heart 

Didn't ever give him any reasons to cheat

Why did I have to become that seed

That lost everything she gained in the process 

& lost the true meaning of living happy  & being free. 

Why did I allow this man to control me

Raise a hand at me

& then try to console me 

Why did I have to be the seed 

That had to scarfice herself

& block out family

Why was it so easy for you to watch me bleed

Strapped onto my heart

Like a robot on a machine 

Exploring my mind for flaws in my thoughts

When I already gave you the apple of eden

Assasin creed

Why was I left crying out on me knees

For God to remove me from the situation 

Why was I left to plead

Asking God for forgiveness

Could he give me the strength to walk away 

all while saving me 

Vengeance is not our

It's the lord

Why did my heart have to grieve 

Why did my soul have to grieve 

Why did I have to sacrifice  every inch of me 

Held me back from my goals

Dealing with pride issues

Because I made more money

Even though your a man

You were afraid for me to succeed

I thought you were on my team

Trying to help me reach goals different heights

And build nothing but a ladder for me to reach my dreams

That would soon become our dreams

I visualized a family

Sitting high on a pedestal you created for me because I was your queen