I just wonder why did you think it was good to push me away,

Why did you think it was good leave me feeling betrayed.

Why did you think it was a good idea to make me think I was insane when we separated.

I was crazy about you but you pushed me in the dark as I began to suffocate.

Well I am still trying to find my way to escape the depression of you pushing me a new way.

When you hurt me what was all of that about?

You made me feel like I was in a black hole so I had to crawl my way out.

The number of times your words had an effect on me I couldn't count.

But you did something to me which is why my heart still cries loud.

"Girl your not nice, your rude. Look what your putting me through

I'd never do that to you."

I wanted your heart and all of you but that was something you didnt want to allow.

I ask myself how?

How did I let you leave with doubt?

Why did you give up?

It's like my mind was becoming corrupt,

corrupt with pain because love turned me into a scrub.

It's OK because I am learning how to forgive and move forward.

I am doing my best to get over the pain of your spoken words,

I don't want to even lose you as just being my friend

because real friendships last and will never end.