what was I scared of?

my anxiety heightened into my throat, heart pounding, I barely breathed

what was I scared of?

months of telling myself I shouldn’t

it would bring up bad memories

what was I scared of?

of him?

of him with her?

do I really scare that easy?

no

no I don’t 

I breathed in one more time

there was nothing to be afraid of

no secret I hadn’t known

just silly pictures 

like any other person

and I let the feeling drift into the night air

along with any fear of him