the view in my mind of these memeories seem vivid,

i capture to reminise each second of its image,

i can see who i was who i am and who i want to be,

i remember looking in the mirror wishing to see it diffrently,

it was the lack of self respect and confidence found inside me,

while outside there was a boy whom to other seemed happily,

i remember moving home to home, waiting for a family,

thats not fearful of my past mistakes and will truly love me gladly,

i remember wanting to forget whats vividly in my mind,

others couldnt notice while i saw the hurt inside,

the pain that was there vividly in my eyes,

a million words fell with each tear that i cried,

i remember as a teenager i was based off of a diaignose,

i suppose it was to explain my problems but i still felt hopless,

they decieded to put me on medication some sorta antidepressant,

expsecting that with the pain some how itll fell less it,

was just a tempory cure within everything that was there,

after all i was nothing more than a diagnose that simply breathed air,

i remember going to a mental hopspital for sucidal attempt,

i was lost within eachword that i meant,

i felt so alone i was there for about a week,

at night i drept it was all a dream until i came back to realty,

im almost eightteen now with my past held behind me,

with a future in my mind and a loving heart inside me,

im writing this to show that im more than a diagnose,

more than hopless with a strong future to show this.