Where Do I Belong
I've always felt that I didn't belong
Longing for people that will understand and won't do me wrong
But that's all I've ever found in the crowd
Blurred faces in tight spaces
They're all I see now.
I am scared of socializing
Past experiences left me doubting
I am afraid of the change of heart
The change of what it will look like after the start
This fear in me subliminally isolating me
I'd most rather be around my family.
There are thoughts on my mind I leave unsaid
Believing there's no point to them so instead
I sit in silence with most of the talking in my head
I think about the people I appreciate
They don't know that they have done something great
They make an impact on my life and brighten my day
Even if it's small it is something that stays.
When will I find my place
When will I find my way
It seems the ache gets deeper day by day
And when I am alone I think of scenes
Of my life before I turned eighteen
Reenacting them to be altered
To have gone the way I wished before they faltered
I try to escape my reality
But I know I have to see
That it went the way it did for a reason
That things will always change like the seasons
And I will find where I belong.