What do you want to be when you grow up?

this is the question that is asked of us

not WHO we will be

but

who AM I going to be?

A job? A number? 

when do I even know when I grow up? 

is it 16? 18? 20?

Does one ever grow up? 

Sometimes I ask myself if I'll ever feel grown up

I won't

we're held up to expectations 

I don't think I'll ever meet them

but I suppose thats when I'll know

what I'll be when I grow up