I've never been shy with boys

I treat them the way I do everyone else:

As a friend

I'm never nervous around them

I always feel at ease

Sometimes moreso with them

Than with my girlfriends

Because there's less drama

More acceptance

I like that

But if I've never been shy around boys...

Then why can't I make coherent sentences around you?

Why do my palms sweat around you?

Why can't I hold your gaze for longer than a few seconds?

This has never happened to me before

Your chocolate brown gaze is easy to get lost in

Your hands are always gentle with me

Your voice always soft

Your laugh is never mean

You always laugh with me

Not at me

So why do I feel like this with you?

Shouldn't I feel even more comfortable because of that?

I wonder what this feeling is in my chest

It's wild

And uncertain

Strong, but fluttery

It brings me to the highest peak when I'm around you

But it hurts too

Your gaze sweeps me and I shiver

Your fingers graze my skin and

The place feels hot all day

What is this feeling?

I think I love you