What will I have to show
I don't force myself to be happy anymore.
Sometimes it's too much effort.
Sometimes I think it's okay to be sad.
Sometimes I just don't.
I often repeat to myself that I'm very young, so
I still have a lot of things on this earth to see.
I haven't had a steady job yet
No one's asked me on a date.
I've graduated high school,
but college, graduate school, what then?
And even if I wanted ot believe I was young,
oh so very young,
I've already lived just a bit less than a quarter of my life expectancy.
20 years have passed, and what do I have to show for it?
And even after I die, will I have done something useful?
Will my legacy live if my name doesn't?
I have the ability to be sad because I am young.
I'm not at that age where life passes you,
and takes away anything you don't appreciate enough in the present.
I love my school, my teachers, myself,
but I'm desperate now to show that I do something.
I want to be sad becuase it shows I can feel.