Window cracked, I wake up to a familiar breeze

on my roof and I can once again breathe

Coral, teal and lilac.

You weren't my cup of tea.

 

I won't lie - it wasn't easy

You tore me apart

But still I wake up at sunrise

and go on about my day

 

I wake up for that day

When I don't care that it's your song

I wake up for that moment

When my heart was never stolen

 

I wake up for that night

When I fall asleep knowing it will be okay

I wake up for the day when I see your face

and realize you can be replaced

 

You weren't my destination

But rather just a stop on the way.

Two years of learning that

You were not the end goal.

 

Life came and took its toll,

Visits became phone calls,

Phone calls became texts,

And harsh words followed.

 

A drop in your tide,

I was never to leave your side.

The hurricane you weren’t ready for

And you cut me to the core.

 

The day brought no peace,

In the night, I fought to breathe.

Toxic, robotic,

Psychotic.

 

You fell deep.

You were hard to keep.

I ran away

With it all.

 

I watched you weep

Unable to help,

Unable to aid,

Looking only at the mess we made.

 

I would keep you safe

In the eye of the storm.

You wanted a garden,

I planted flowers.

 

They grew like weeds,

And strangled me as

You stood back and admired.

Didn’t you think I was too young?

 

I would burn to keep you warm

 

 Sanity lost,

But it kept you sane.

I tried to be your lifeboat

But the anchor dragged me down.

 

Still you tried to save me,

but I was already out of your reach.

I was the air you knew how to breathe

While you were the poison killing me.

 

Alone I was when you left me behind

You said I was hard to find

Alone I was when I put myself back together

Alone I was when I knew that my worth couldn't be

measured

 

Today's the day I woke up for

You called me at last night

You called – I ignored --

I've won this fight.

 

You called I ignored

I'm glad you've learned

Your voicemail erased

You’re easy to replace

 

No longer waking at sunrise,

No longer imagining you at my side,

No trips to the roof --

I slept in till 9

 

Face to face --

We weren't the same.

You begged me to stay

No -- I went on my way

 

Today’s the day I woke up for