"What Love Doesn't Look Like"
It wasn't love
when I was so overtaken by my depression
that I couldn't hear
the caring words
they were trying to say.
But it wasn't love
when they tried to drown out my mental illness,
like it wasn't actually there
because it was inconvenient
and in the way.
And it wasn't love
when I felt panicked
every time they texted
and it wasn't love
when we screamed at each other.
Love doesn't look like
the empty wine bottle
I drank
to push away my lonliness
It wasn't love
when he took off my clothes
while I was drunk
Love isn't in secrecy or abuse or misuse.
Love is different.
Love is accepting.
-and it is proud
KF