What I'll Never Have The Courage To Say
To my father, my mother
My grandma, my little brother
Thank you for believing in me,
When I am too blind to see
I often can’t believe that I’m actually here.
Sometimes I feel so weak,
I’m constantly consumed with fear.
Constantly on the brink,
Of destruction, I collapse on myself.
Set standards too high but i’ll never beg for help
Because in my brain I need to be stronger,
But sometimes I can’t hold it any longer.
I feel like a failure,
But there you are,
You’re there for me when I’m at my lowest.
I’ll always try to not be a burden and you know this.
You know when I’m mad or upset.
Taught me to be a kind person,
To help others and yet,
It’s nothing compared to what you all do for me.
You guide me home when I’m lost at sea.
I know I’m a mess.
You guys make me want to be better for you
So that one day I may make you all proud.
I look back and see all the things I’ve been through,
And you are always in the picture .
I know I don’t show it often,
But I love you all so much.
The only goal in my life, is to see you all happy.
God, when did I get all sappy?
I don’t know if I’ll ever have the courage
To show you how much you all mean to me but know this,
I’m not the best person but I’ll do what I can
Because you already do so much for me and accept me for who I am.