Wheight and Glory

Today my heart is heavy. Gravity has touched ground and I can feel the pain with the

weight of the pressure pound for pound and ounce for ounce. I try to lift up but I

can't get up on my own. My emotions run wild and they lead me in misdirection to

escape from the weight. The weight is that I have to watch my love go on other dates

with with men who see her as easy bait. The hurt is that I know they will succeed for

a time because of her weakness. But for this time she does not want me, her

messenger of love. I speak to her not with  tongues or lustful fulfilled desires but

with meaningful actions and sacrificial passions.  However, I'm still confused and I

don't understand. She says the reason why is because she is in fear but I am in

jealousy and pulled by anger, rage, and pain.  This is the weight I have to endure

while I wait. I wait for her at sunrise before the rooster crows looking and trying to

see if she has left the night yet. My heart holds my vows at the cracking of dawn but

they are already being crushed before they leave my lips. The weight is so heavy.

This burden I cannot endure and this path I cannot leave or detour. She is apart of

my destiny. This is my weight and glory.  The weight of the wait for her hurts me

every day as wake for sunrise when I get my hopes high but then it just falls right

back down as a rock in gravity. As sure as leaves fall from a tree she is to leave from

me. The world has withered her and her beauty is not supplied because she does

not want her true Love. I learn from Love, I seek Love. But she runs and leaves Love.

But as sure as a deserted man in the desert runs for water  so will she run to a

stream of love that will lead her to the source of that stream. She will be supplied

abundantly as we both are with and in Love. My weight I will feel no more because

we both will be in Glory.

Scripture:
2 Cor. 4:16-18
1 Cor. 13
Proverbs 31:10-31

"I dedicate this to the one whom I'm waiting for."