Years of work

Years of time

Years of work

Years of time

Yet misery I find

Years I've tried

Years I've tried

To do the good

To do the work

make works of art

From the dreams I dreamt

To the worlds I've been

To the characters that I see

I want to draw them out

I want to draw them out

But my skills are not to par 

My dream is still very far

Its hurts to fail

Its hurts to be wrong

It hurts when my efforts

My choices 

Aren't enough

I am cirpple by debt

I am not one

with a green thumb

Clouded with indecision

Clouded with fear

Clouded with depression

I feel my dream slipping

I tether with a link

Strong enough

It does not  break

 The family

the few true friends

whisper and support me

Stay strong they say

We love you they say

Stay positive they say

Smile

They say

My tears don't end

I hear their calls

Their words spread

through the wounds

Yet my dreams 

the weight 

added on

The years that have pass

The years that have pass

weight upon 

me

My dream

Can I make it come to pass?