as the waves crash around me and
the storm threatens to steal my breath
i catch myself looking for you
.
because even though you have been gone for more than a year
you have always been the thing to ground me
when i start to lose myself to the sea
.
and it seems that the world is having a laugh
because the one time i dont spot you out
the corner of my eye
i dont welcome the waves to sweep me off my feet
.
you are not there to save me from myself
and for the first time in a long time
.
i am scared