I've emptied countless bottles

And filled many ashtrays trying to find answers to your love

But nothing seemed to work

You didn't ask for this

Besides, who says poetry has to arise from hungover mornings

And blackened lungs?

Why not erupt from the geysers of hearts

Replace blood with neutrophins and dopamine

And release love through drug clogged arteries

Reminders of why I drag myself through days come when the sun rises

And shine light on lying memories of you,

Rapidly flowing through my veins leaving the truth embedded under the current..

I ignore ignorance, to maintain my sensitivity

To maintain my most inspiring distraction

A trail of words beneath letters linger lightly on my neck

In the places you carefully placed your lips

As I touched places that are too familiar with my fingertips

I know this love..

I don't know why,

I tend so much to the past when it is the future that is fragile

Why I risk being broken

I wish you were a safer craving

Like marijuana

Sending spurts of serotonin, making me smile, lingering in my clothes

Making every move I make reek of your memory

Instead, you're lethal

Leaving no traces behind

Except for the aches in my bones and puddles of cold sweat I wake up in

From the cravings

Love me..

Love me..

I understand that these empty bottles and full ashtrays never held the answers to your love

But the reasons for my insecurities