I seem to be losing everyone I love anyways

so maybe I should get away

Find a better place to stay

somewhere for my head to lay

and I can sleep the day away

because

all my nightmares are coming real

and all my pain is all I feel

it's just too real and

I want to escape

I need to meditate

but it feels like its too late

and I wish I could just pray 

but gods forsaken me and

I'm not too blind to see all he's done for me

I'm just sick ya see

its mental instability

from a lack of passion and compassion I've been lackin

and I'm sorry for the ways I been actin but

lately I've been crackin and I can't

seem to come back and I know I've been selfish

and a little hellish and I know I can't right the wrongs

but I can write some songs and

keep myself going on whether I deserve to or not

I got a purpose from some higher purpose and

a love that I've made feel worthless

but I wish I could show him

what his worth is and

I wish I could could stop the urges

 but this poem is just

scratching

the

surface